Friday, January 21, 2011

CALM PLEASE!

It seems I have been racing my whole life to achieve something.  "CALM"!  Do you know what I mean?  I desire to be centered and calm instead of appearing "calm, cool, and collected on the outside, while falling apart on the inside.  This has been going on way to long for me and as the big 4-0 approaches in a few weeks, I want to change.  I think that balance has a lot to do with achieving this inner calm that I seek.  With a husband, three teens, two tweens, and a two year old, I struggle with balance.  The fact that three of our kids have special needs and the other three have needs unique to them as well keeps me in a seemingly never ending cycle of trying to survive life instead of living life.  In talking with a friend a while back, she made the comment that it seems to her that all I do is race to meet the needs of others and never my own.  We had been discussing the transition my family has gone through with Mark and I starting a new home-based business.  Later that night, I recalled our conversation and realized I wasn't sure what my own needs are!  As I closed my eyes and prayed for an answer, the word "calm" came to my mind.
My quest (not race) for CALM has begun.  The first thing on my list to help myself with this is to study the scriptures.  What does God want me to do?  What is His advice on how to achieve and live a balnced life?  Please share with me.  Share your struggles and what helped you overcome, manage, achieve peace, or simply remain steady.          

2 comments:

  1. Yeah, you're blogging too. I look forward to following you on your quest for calm. Starting each day with scripture and prayer- It works better than anything I know. Even when I had a house full of kids at home, I tried to beat everyone out of bed and have time to myself to read and pray. I remember those years when it was all about the kids. Life revolves around the family. I think for me, I let it revolve too much around the family and church and wish I had been more centered on Christ. Family and church activity are wonderful things , but they don't take the place of a personal relationship with the Savior. That's what I've been learning the last 8 years or so. Sounds like you are on the right track. Good luck to you. Love you.

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  2. Love you too Melissa! You are my first "follower"! Thank you for the advice on starting the day with scripture and prayer. It is so easy to fill my life with good things like family and church service and forget to fill my own spiritual cup.

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